Seriously.
Can`t they just fixed this damn stupid thing??!!??

It`s irritating the shit hell outta me
:/ I don`t know why..

But I`m getting worse in my usage of languages nowadays
Maybe life`s really being a bitch towards me ):
I don`t know why~ Argh!
For having to tolerate so many things isn`t my forte
Well, starting to piss everyone off sure is my forte then ):

Livejournal livejournal
Everyone around me kep talking about moving to LJ
You can even privatised some entries nah!! [one good thing about LJ]
I`m giving blogger another few more chances
If they are still not gona fixed this damn posting page thing
I will try moving too

Though I`m not sure if I`ll ever get adapted to it
But definately, blogger is always having this error that error
Alot of things happened these few days nah~
Yet it`s damn hard to blog it out
LOL! Whatever.

Spiderman3 and photoshoot yesterday
HAHA! Think about how we all got pulled into the photoshoot was damn funny nah
But it's Kevin Roberts we`re helping
xP So yeah. And Gavin got himself stucked in it also just cause he wana catch his gf in the photoshoot!! Lmao~

NTU rep pulled out on ISPE
The thought that had came to my mind before during the very 1st meeting in SP
:/ Quite discouraging but still..........some things shall remain private(:
erk!

sleeping positions

some fun facts i discover while reading chuishan's blog((:


So which kind are you? xD

in another world (:

((:

I miss my hair I miss I miss
*whines whines whines*
:/ I learned my ways
Shall never ever ever cut it away again! x/
even if the urge is there!

Chai Hui just left my house, like a few minutes ago
I wonder how she can keep her cool when teaching my lil sis
:/ I'm still amazed at how fast the education system is progressing

At secondary one, they are already learning about haemoglobin???
HEELLOOO~ I only know what's that all about in secondary THREE
and that's when I started my Food and Nutrition subject! (not science)

OMG. Or maybe I did not pay attention in secondary one and two?
HAHA! Can't be. I clearly remember I saw that word first in my F&N book!
Anyway, they are progressing toooo fast I conclude. heh~ :/
(that was my personal opinions by the way)

My life now is as messy as my laptop
BOO! Edna CXX, reformat for me quick
:D I can't stand it's slownesssssssss

I always thought I'm the happy-go-lucky kind of girl
who forever has a smile on her face everytime people look at her
I always thought I am

Yet, recently everyone around me kept asking me "what's wrong" bla bla bla
And I find it unreasonably hard to put that curve up across my face
They said to just take it as it is and appreciate whatever is given out

I know it clearly myself
that things should never be dragged for too long
Cause once it do, it will get out of hand

And right now, I think it has already gotten out of hand
Far tooo much for me to bear anymore :/
It was always me listening to others giving advices
like I'm some kind of a problem-solver specialist

Where's the old juliana?
I needa find myself back :D
All else doesn't matter actually

Isn't it because of my optimisim
that Mr Kevin Roberts chose me for being NYP representative in the ISPE student chapter?
He had clearly told me that it IS cause of that right?
So why am I being such a disappointment now?

I'm always the *juliana* when I'm in swiss
I wana be the *juliana* now in another environment too!
Not change :/
It's not that hard I presume

I see life in a very different way I guess

:D Spiderman 3's out already!
But from what I see, a lot a lot of people have already booked seats
So won't have any nice seats left if I were to go buy that day right?
Hmm..Yea. Even bro says "no need to think also know" :/

So typical of us singaporean laaa
Hahah... Can't wait to catch this show
:D wheee~~~

看着时间　别让它再流浪
从前我　太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中　却深深撼动我
一起走着　没说什么　心是满足的

这个世界　随时都要崩塌
我没有　其他的愿望
假如明天将消失了　趁现在我爱着
只想记得　被你抱着　温热的感受

Love Beautiful So Beautiful
我失去过　更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我　被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手　不要放手　永远守护我

Love beautiful So Beautiful
我很快乐　你会了解我
我不会再哭泣　是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着　每秒钟
都能证明　一生的美丽

这个世界　随时都要崩塌
我没有　其他的愿望
假如明天将消失了　趁现在我爱着
只想记得　被你抱着　温热的感受

Love Beautiful So Beautiful
我失去过　更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我　被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手　不要放手　永远守护我

Love Beautiful So Beautiful
我失去过　更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我　被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手　不要放手　永远守护我

Love Beautiful So Beautiful
我很快乐　你会了解我
我不会再哭泣　是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着　每秒钟
都能证明　一生的美丽

Love's Beautiful So Beautiful

the courage to live on(:

1 litre of tears.
what a touching story(:

but well, i guess i am just not like any normal girls..
ESP EDNA CHAN XIUXIANG... xP
i only teared when i watched the last 2 episodes of the show.
and in the middle of episode 6 when ako-chan is repriminding the brother.

that's all.
maybe it's cause i didn't watch all at once?
and some distractions in between also.
haha. whatever, this is based on true story.

she died in the year i was born.
how i admired her courage to live on in life.
as if it were to happen to me..
i think i would just jump on the train track!
=/ okayy. but i definately won't have her courage.
for that i salute her! xD

well, go watch it bah!
youtube have it! ((:
okayy.. enough of that.

actually how does the whole blogging thing works?
i do not know how to carry on from there.
=/ after typing on it for more than many years..
i suddenly realised i do not know how to blog at all.

hah! what a great entry.
AM talking to edna now nah..
and was being lame all the while.
haha! am i always like this? =/

ooh..
the last time i went shopping with chai hui
i accidentally blurt out things i should not have said.
haha! and she had been bugging me for answer.. -.-"

nono....there won't be an answer from me.
wahahah~~~~~ -.-"

and we girls had some lame things going on again nah..
with shits and mosquitoes.. LOL
it's true that playing and joking around with it is alright.
but don't go too far alright(:

well, but i am not sure of how this feeling came about.
let's just say..... fate(:

anyway, went for mani and padi curing yesterday with sis.
well, wasn't well done!
and i destroyed the toe nailed one
it hasn't dried and i forgot about it.
being the usual "violent" me.
i just smudged it.. -.-"

going back tomorrow to re-polish it.
will there be any charges? hope not. =/
then meeting with darling to do more painting.. LOL
shall buy a few designs to have more creations. hehe.. xD

(: well, cny's in exactly 7 days' time.
clothes ready, shoes ready
nails not, hair not!
ergh~~ i wana cut my hair..
any nice recommendations?
cut cut cut!

o.O
i am losing interst in working for them already
esp since shen yi and edna quitted theirs..
well, maybe shall quit after this last week.

and well, maybe won't be going on vacation with them bah.. ):
i simply have to think properly.
can't be spending my savings any-o-how-ly le.
if i go for this month vacation,
i really wont be able to provide for my driving lessons.
and well, travelling can be done some other times..
we still have many years of friendship building(:

they won't abandon me just cause i did not go this time right? =/
maybe they will...be secretly happy. -.-"
well, guess nah..

like i said in the past,
pessimistive grows in me... sad.
okok.

well, everyone lives for a purpose..
is that true?
i know of people who just live for the sake that their time is just not up yet.
i know pf people who lives cause deaths do not want them.
o.O are those two points the same?
but yeah. i do not know what am i actually living for.

humans are the only greedy creatures...who want to live longer?
then why is it that turtles live longer than us? =/
isn't that true??
why are they the ones living till hundreds over years old and us?
bet right now, u wana punch me?
hahahaah.... =/

aiya. byebye

dying soon i guessss =/

well, the headache's been getting worse.
so are flu and cough.. )):
and! doctor suspect me of TB nah... wth! =/
shouldn't be that bad huh...

have to observe myself for few days again..
and i thought the chest problem have been solved... (>.<)
5 types of medicines to be taken everyday!
never have had such cases before neh... T.T
i wonder what's wrong with blogger..
it don't wana let me upload pictures!! (>.<)
wth! shucks~ shall change to the new blogger soon i guess.
since it's OUT of beta.. =/ wahah~

missed work yesterday as the headache had no improvement. -.-"
well, been like 2 weeks ever since i started work there.
not that bad yet not that good too. =/
aiyer... working adult world.. have to get used to it one day also... =/

***
had a nightmare yesterday.
recently..all the things that happened..
just made me think of you. ):
let past let go.
how to do so when there's unfinished wishes????
it's easy to say.
but difficult to do it.
actions speak louder than words remember? ):
i just miss you so much.

***

hui: hmm.. well, i guess urs is exception? haha..or cause u also adnormal..... that's why never work together!!!!! arr... i think that's the answer!! =/ wahaha!!

tsehweee: yea yea~~ and im sick ar... just nice! LOL... pills sia... see le scared!!!! haha... and yea~~~ come yck often ar... *grins grins* hehehe~~ xD so i can bump into u one day!! xD yay!!

felicia: erm..sure~ hha.. but i thought must pass your bday? and 1989 is 21 yrs old? not? hmmm.....

raidah: hehe.. still the same mar... means no change! LOL.. xD hehe.. and yea.. i agree that bumping into the ones you know is like slim ar... hehe.. xD cyah often!! (((:

dearie bday celeb, btt and family dinner! xD

my christmas cards preparation~ haah..
this is the first year im giving out cards laaa.haha.. -.-"

it's dearie's birthday today!! xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TSEHWEE!!

haha.. as usual ar.. with dearies around..
there will sure be pictures~~ and.....
these pictures are ripped straight from ziddy's blog!
wahahahah~~~

anyway..i did the same trick laaa....
hahahah~~~~~ by saying im not freeeee...
den *pop* up at her place~
LOL
this time...with sa together! xD
last year raisa ng was late ar! den we had to meet her at westmall instead! LOL

i think...next year...must change style already. haha..
once is suprising..twice is still okae..
thrice is BORING already! hahah!

anyway, this year was sa saying to meet at afternoon
and me..yet not free again~ LOL

then me and sa met early in the morning
to buy that girl all the grrrreeennnn stuffsss we can think of.
went in to shop 'n' save..
walked around...
in the end...bought her..
fragrant pears~~
just tea~~
sour skittles~~
and two chocolate bars..

haha... only the last items were not in green laa...
then sa *pop* up first.. when she's closing doors..
then i *poP*! haha..!
i was in pink..[her ex fav colour]
sa's in greeen! [her fav colour now]
LOL... was abit unplanned arrr... xD

she wasn't suprised laaaaaaaa =/


those pictures with her wet wet hair and sleeping clothes~~
xD well.. forever de laa...
she batheddddd sooooooo early!!
we wanted to see her slpy face okae. haha..
but we always failed! LOL


oooh.. we bought her a cake too! in pink~
haha..her ex fave colour.... wahahaa...
wanted to buy her a pandan cheese one..
it's green in colour ar..
but it was sold out..
so bo bian laaaa.. hah!


this the bday girl~~ *capturing her making a wish*
may your wish come true alright! haha~


the things we got for her..
the things from sa..
and the card from me.
*see a censored blur thing?*
wahaha... *sssshhhh*
=/


and while sa's went to take out her stiches..
we played on the webcam..
i studied for my BTT..
she prayed..
dolled up.....and waited for sa~~~ xD



went k-boxing with them! haha..
took away sa's *virgin* trip!! xD
wheee~~
dearies!! we go k again okok!! hahaa..
k-ing with them was damn fun laaa... xD


see!! since christmas' coming!
we carolled!!! xD
and the animations are damn cute laa~~
frosty~the snowman~~~~ xD


okae. i had to leave early. haha.
then..... all the zl(s) with them...
sad.. there's like only 2 photos with huiz..
and the 2 photos..are the same rite? LOL
but i had equal fun with them! wheee~


and this is the amount for 3 pax.
i paid a little little..
cause i left early?
next time okae! i treat u~~ xD


then..met the brother and went to take the BTT~
i passsed! wheee~ a step nearer to getting the driving license! waaha...
and we saw weilun there laa...so qiao..
he same test as us also..
and he sat two seats away from bro~ haha..
i was sooooo nervous laaa...
didn't wana click on the end test button!
cause the people walking away which i saw...
all failed!! =/ hehe.. but now..
passing the FTT once! is my goal. haha..
PDL PDL.. not sure about that. haha..
jiayou man! xD got bro to go through it together! xD


then my papa's company got this christmas lunch celebration.
he got the pillow from hallmark as one of the christmas present exchange!
and the pooh cup as table gift.. wth rite? =/
such cute stuffs!! hahaha.. xD
and now..the pillow is mine!
oooh....got consolation prize too. $30 voucher from NTUC!
haha..mama's the happy housewife now.. LOL =/


and today's dong ji what.. so we got a so called...
better and scumptious dinner! haha...
got lobster!!
abit small for 6 persons in the ouse only ar..
wheee~~ fullll dinner! LOL..

i used.....two hours to type this entry... -.-"
with all the distractions in between laaa..
all in all...i love today! wahaha!! xD

what an entry -.-"

yoyo! xD
the above is the starting/part of icy's birthday present.
haha. forgotten to take a picture of the final product! LOL
our hard works paid off.
felt such great sense of satisfaction after we saw the final product okae!
haha.. that was also my first's on the sewing machine! xD
cool cool cool..
now i know the hard work of my aunt's maid to change my swiss skirt zip!
haha.. when it got spoilt...by me! LOL.. =/

got quite a few new movies recently from bro and gidd..
and the step up dvd from kris!! muahaha..
now i can watch thousands millions times i want(:
nah nah~ just kidding. xD
they can keep my two weeks hoildays busy and packed!
but! i have like.....
finished lots of them already!

sheesshhh! ((:
there's PAL meeting next week.
sad.
edna won't be there with me..
hope winston won't talk about sponsorship!
*pray* muahahha! =/ i doubt so lah...

ohoh! before i forgot~ xD
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Forward this to your friends and let them enjoy the christmas promotion .
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okae.
the above is my senior WILLIAM's online business.
haha.. made it all the way to france even laa.. OMG.
and planning a merge with puzzleworld..
WOW okae. hahah..

if any of you readers decided to find him!!
say my name okae! =/
wahahaha!!
i get commissions from him one! hahaa...
not a joke. but true~ LOL.. xD

hmmm...
just decided to use the last one week break to do some revision on MS.
and some IPC i guessed.
BUT! i wan my play before all that serious studying!

mahjong mahjong!! quick!
decide a date!
and i decided to NOT play money.
BRO! don't think you can cheat me of my money!
muahahah! whoops! =/
wheee~ just let me plaY~ haaha..
lalalala~




replies :

[tsehwee]] haha..no fishy no wrong! just not whatever you're thinking yea.. xD and yup yup! but.....ting's got church camp till the 21st.. )): so how so how???? oooh.. i wan something from genting ar! hahaha.. =/ nah nah... just joking~ hhehehe...

[raisa]] haha. we can't get to watch happy feet together.. so at least watch charlotte's web together! xD yay!! and yup.. the papers' all done! *grins* yyea yea.. we should all go genting again one day and reminisce ar? LOL! cool idea~ xD and yup. m alright.. haha.. still crazy and happy go lucky as ever.. love you too!!!! muah muah~

[hui]] *omg. im scared* wahah~~~ BOO back. -.-" haha.. and anyway, my discovery also only lasted ONE DAY! *looks/stares at bro* -.- hahah.. so nothing to share already~~ cause it's gone!! LOL.. not i dun wan be steady.. haha... please... our mahjong session???? when when when???? xD

so very random.

gidd's theory of guys doesn't work on cliQue's guys.. HA HA. =/

i'm so dead. x sleeping at 1++am and waking up at 3.30pm.
haven't start studying for IPC and CEP.
why must this two papers be together?? )):
at least for CEP, we had that class test.
i know what to expect.. =/

whereas for IPC..
i'm so very very very dead.
does writting notes really help?
i hope so then.
this sem's modules are all based on calculations!!!!!
and i hate that....suck in that!! urgh!!

and all that talk about program 1 being easier. ):
cry cry cry cry cry*
i wana pass so badly alright..

studies studies studies...
when can i stop studying?
[>.<] Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

well, ^ this song is nice! xD

this dec has so many nice shows!!
night at the musuem, eragon, the holiday, open season, casino royale, CHARLOTTE's WEB(: & death note.
i wana watch wana watch wana watch! xD
who wana go with me???? (((: *triple smiles*
oooh.. i have casino royale in my lappy~ hehe... shall we watch together? (:

anyway, 2 besties of mine going genting this sem break... -.-"
hahha! bon voyage alright! hehee...

i needa start studying now.
cyahs((:

not a good entry.

you jolly well do not talk HALFWAY with the person and suddenly go MIA!
it's rude..! BLOODY DAMN RUDE!
didn't your mama teach you?
or at least you would have learnt in school...
to show full attention to the one talking to you
and not be distracted???

It's damn irritating!
I get these treatments from everyone surrounding me.
and it's coming onto me. irritation!
ergh.

and now, cause of a few misunderstandings,
you made me think through alot. yet again.
why can't things just last happily for me?

other thing, where do i exactly stand in your heart?
am i ONE of the importants?
or are ******* more importants?
like why the hell...........................

does saying out really helps?
and i thought saying out destroys everything.
why do i live for?
for whom and why???

friendship wasn't there in the beginning.
all we relied on was **********
and that is a rather sad case.
i fantasized.
everyone do.
but my fantasy just do not come true.

ii need comfort sometimes.
and yet everyone seems to think otherwise of me.
the lousist student.
the worst bestfren.
the crappiest person.
and lastly,
the world's most hatred person i bet.

and why is it that i have that kind of thinkings/feelings from everyone?
thinking too much is just an excuse.
i bet when you said that,
you think so otherwise.

i do not think too much.
it's you who gave me all that *thinkings*
respect?
what do i get?

a bad character
a violent behaviour
a hidden face behind my craziness
inferior attitude

what was all that mould what i am today?
what was it that i grow through i bet others won't grow through unless..
the sufferings and misery i'm going through is enough to shock all to death
was it just so difficult to be me?
just me???



i am very tired.
i also wana end it all.
but that is a sin.
i wana be free.


p/s: the above all of *you*(s) refer to different people. if you're guilty, do something about it bah. if you're unhappy, DO NOT TELL ME. JUST GO AWAY.

SEE!! will i be sued? just wana voice out! saw this when i was on my way to acsi laa... BUT! how can a baby be left on a moving bus???!!!??????
doesn't the father know that is dangerous? and the baby is still great laa...the baby was sleeping when i boarded the bus..halfway he/she woke up! luckily, he/she is not the active kind...remained still and blur... moving along with the bus laa... such *irresponsible* father.. TSK!! *angry*


woah! all ten of us in conversation! hehe.. thought it's not possible..tried and tadah!! hehe.. so fun! and so....messy! xD yet...nice~~ LOL! gona be spending christmas eve with them.. my lovely cliQue(: they're great people alright. xD yeah! counting down to christmas together with them. can't wait. hehe..



whee whee~ this is my new hairstyle! short short short... missed my long hair! [>.<] *boooo* hehe.. sad!! left two strands of long locks of my hair! xD hehe.. okae. can't catch what i'm talking about right? LOL.. lalala~

see laa..kids nowadays are just sooooo fortunate.. they have their own exercising set!!! so cute laa!! hhehe... tsktsk... do we even have those in the past?? LOL.. *whines* unfair! heeh..

xD went for short K yesterday. 3 hours only!! [>.<] ate the k-lunch. hmmm.. not my taste. LOL. wouldn't wana eat it anymore. hehe.. sang new songs..old songs for tian..and more..helped chai hui to *reject* a stayover from her friend.. reached home slpt and did a little on sem proj.. anyway, CT's like...less than a week's time. OMG. and I'm slacking laa.. i need motivation. ): booohooo~

alright. math lect was boring. so there's the drawing. then chai hui remembered that we wanted to eat geleré waffles. and yeah..last minute. thus, only me and her. fooled around. LOL.. see the pics bah...

gona study for french test and finish up my resume and cover letter!!!
au revoir!! xD

what's with me?

haha. wth laa.. xD
if one person have feelings for the other party,
sparks will *sparkle*??
or the other party will be moved by his sincerity?

is that true?
or was it...
just another show/drama?

stupid show.
just one word
drama.

hey hey hey!
phantom of the opera musical
will be here sooN!!
esplanade theatre...
who wana go with me??? xD

thought of asking gidd.
haah..
cause so far,
i think he's the only person who will watch such things with me..
(((:

have been liking this musical ever since i first heard its popular tracks
"phantom of the opera" & "music of the night"
pestered the ex almost when i first saw the movie trailer to bring me to watch on the day it's released.
then, *hoped* for the soundtrack
and got it for 2005 valentine(:
went round looking for its vcd..
but to no avail.
until now...the musical's finally stepping foot into singapore!
like....finally..!!!!
after.....20 years since they made their first appearance??? ((:
but......think no one's gona go with me bah... )):

hmmm........
LUN~~~JIALUN JIALUN JIALUN!!
if you're reading now....
help me help me ask ask can??? xD
hehehhehhee... okok.. *ssshhhhssss*
dvd also can... vcd also can...
ask for the price can? xD
owe u....another drink?
LOL..
thought about it.
decided to get it..
but....have to check out the price first. (:

IPC test's tomorrow.
sad. anw, today ended early..
pulled MS tutorial up to 11am.
ended at 12pm..
earlier i think. haha.

hui and me wanted to watch a movie.
actually she wana watch step up.
but edna's running a temperature.
i watched it before...
therefore, decided on a movie?

but we went studying in the library after school today.
for IPC tomorrow.
cleared some of my doubts.
i saw a *whole new picture of something*.
hmmm..
after that...
asked the guys wana go together..
discuss discussing discussed..
all decided to go home.. -.-"

so it's me and hui.
wanted to watch material girls..
aiya! stupid yishun didn't screen it.
xiong..told you yishun is a lousy place. =/
LOL..
so ended up with flushed away~

haha. kinda funny laa..
i was laughing all the way laa..
quite nice..wheee~
so cute laa... cartoons just lighten and brighten my day. ((:

okae.
gona study more of IPC.
won't wana fail it.
10% is it?
a lot a lot......

there's sem project to be complete.
MS to study for...test coming..
hmmm..i guess there's a lot more bah.

i needa get a new diary soon! (:
planning to get that habit back. hehe.
i feel more at ease like that.
haha.
NO ONE to comment on my chinese...
NO ONE to laugh at me being so *pathetic*
NO ONE to ... cause of helpin me to edit thus know my feelings.
NO ONE to know i HAVE BAD THINGS TO KEEP.. LOL
NO ONE to encourage me.
NO ONE to diss me casue of somethings i wrote.
and more of NO ONE.

doyoufeellousyasaperson?
causeido.
withallthesurroundingshappening
iseriouslyfeellousyasaperson.
especiallysoifthatpersonwhomadethecomment
issomeonespecial. ):

Went back to swiss today.
Like finally~
hahaha..
after been *chased* out last week. LOL

Almost forgotton how Mr Chew looks like.
HAHA!
=/

Well,
I envy swiss.
At least they have a PROPER band pract. =/
Wish them luck for SYF next year! xD
JiaYou orh!! (((:

I have a dream.
A dream where
everything seems right(:

je'tamie mon cheri.

reality check.
why is everyone fighting for fame and their own personal selfish gains?
):

Aiya. Wanted to blog somemore..
As usual...I forgotten.
Anyway, blogs sucks. =/

They really can't keep secrets. ):
Cyah!

*forever love*

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you ?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger .

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

***

received this email before?
i'm sure you do(:
i received it soooo many times before.
and right now.. i can only say...
it perfectly suit my current *situation* =/

i also wana blog in chinese..like lun~
however, i realised...my standards of chinese is damn lousy.
if he says he is lousy (which is soo contradicting)
then i'm damn lousy.

lol..
have never ever been good in it anyway.
shall just stick to english
or have some partial chinese words.. ((:
like how i used to do in my personal diary~

haha...
yeah yeah..
in case you're stunned.
i keep a diary.
infact...diaries...
for they ran out of pages alright. haha..
xD

they're good you know?
they won't leak out your deepest feelings..
they won't threaten you for anything..
they won't scold you for anything you said..
they won't CRASH on you after you wrote a looonngg loonnngggg *entry*
and mostly,
they show how much you have grown from your last *entry*(:

taking them out and reading them whenever i'm feeling lonely
laughing at my old-self.. (if there is such a word)
seeing how much i've *grown*
is such a joy.

however, after the birth of blogger...

my diary hasn't been written constantly..

i hate that.

yet sometimes, just feel so lazy now.

说了也没用。

我需要空间。

a bad day

great. )):
today didn't went well.
[><] think only the nine people in my clique will know what i'm talking about. i'm sad! wasted money. wasted time. and wasted a chance. LOL...... i was thinking about a lot of things. that needed me to solve it. and not leave it there to rot and get worse. =/ actions actions instead of avoiding it. anyone wana share my secrets? LOL i'm bursting.... darlings..... =/

***

why do two people with completely incompatible personality struggle to stay together?
why is one-sided love so hurtful?
why should one be hurt in order to know what true love is?
why must opposite sex attract each other?
why should the world disappear whenever he's in sight?
why does one small little sweet thing he did can just erase all the ten bad things he once did?
why is this stage so difficult to pass?
why must this feeling come at the wrong time?

people do changed.

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great! )):
i wrote a whole lot of my feelings on the stupid blogger
and my GREAT lappy just had to died on me.........
[><] *cry9* must rewrite? now chieng jialun is gloating over my un-saved entry.... cause he had that experience too... which is like.......a common thing to happen in blogger laaa... [><]

aiya aiya!! =/
need to rewrite..
alright. i need to get into the mood(:

hmmm....
as i was writing..

ergh. forget it. shall blog another day. cyah!

Puzzlehup(:

[click to enlarge]
The Website(:

As promised.....

Hey guys!!
This is William's online business... xD
Hmm, I only know you can personalised your photos whatever to either puzzles or magnets...
And, the frame used are non-breakable! hah!
If you wana know more about it..
Just contact him okae! ((:

Okay. Done! (:
Yeah. A new skin.
Still not happy with it.
Something's not right.
Hmmm...

No mood to write.
You know how amazed you can be at one's thinkings?

bad forum

HELLO~
xD


Hmmm.
The forum's over.
Bad bad bad event. )):
Nah. Shan't talk about it.


Anyway, the concert's tomorrow.
Not feeling the excitment I should feel.
Bad omen.


Well, I'm not me nowadays.
Mood swings damn fast.
I can be sad and moody all this moment.
Then, laughing like a mad woman the next.


What the hell is wrong with me laa.......

i had this dream/nightmare a few days ago.
it just sort of pop into my mind.
i think it's cause his cousin talked to me
that made me think of this.
reaching a year
yet i just can't seem to let go
though i can be crazy at times
deep in my heart craved a place
where the memories of us
will never be erase
i dont want to but i kept
comparing everyone around me with him
i thought i had it put down
i was so wrong
couldnt put it down afterall
learning to face the truth
was the hardest phase i ever had to go through
was that still love for him?
or im just used to it that i cannot live a second w/o it?

Allo! ((:

Just came back from intensive training in band.
and I liked it.
Had a talk with the senior.
Sectionals a lot.
Scoldings, Bondings and more...

Improving a lot. In all pieces and all areas. (:
I really hope now the concert will be a success.
Hmm..
Til now, I still have all my tickets with me..
):

Nobody's coming.
I guess.
LOL.
Don't come lor.
(:

LOL...
Now I wish that concert don't ever come.
Cause by the time it's over..
My two beloved seniors [huimin and william]] will be gone.
)): Oh! That reminds me...
I must find all ways to made huimin agree to william sitting with me during the concert! xD

I stayed on partly because of them.
If they're gone...
I don't think the yr ones will wana be there. ):
*tears tears tears*

Anyway, was penning my thoughts down on a piece of paper
yesterday...
During CEP lecture.
Here goes...

The feeling is slowly drifting away
The other feeling is also diminishing
It's sort of useless

There's no harm trying?
But you will get hurt in the process
It's what you brought it on yourself

No use blaming on others
The world isn't changing
You are.

When you look at someone
and you know they'll never feel the same again
It hurts.

When you look at things that remind you of the past
where you can't feel the past exist anymore
It hurts.

When you arrived at a place
and everything you do just reminds you of someone
It hurts.

[p.s. darling. im alright. haha. ((:]]

Lalalala~
Ooooh!
My theory test is coming... xD
Wish me luck!
Hope I won't freak out. Heheehheh!!

au revoir.

2nd french class. xD

Bonjour!!
Je m'appelle Yvette!
Je sius Singapourienne
Ja' habite a Singapour xD
Et vous??
Enchate!!!!!!!!

hehe! 2nd french class.
Fun!! I'm liking this module more and more and more! xD
Well, I think I can excel in this module.
No...I WILL. hehee.. wheee~~~~ (Oui)
Hehehhee.....

Anyway, the lappy is fully recovered. xD
YAY!! *my icon*
*hearts hearts*
I saw ____________..the person who __________________________

LOL...
Don't bother guessing.
You won't know what I'm talking about anyway.
Hehheehe..
I can't say ar...

Later I'm sued by _______ you know...
Tsktsk!! hehehe..
Blogging less often and lesser now..

Tomorrow's having full rehearsal for Sinfonia.
Well, a little bit nervous...
Anyone to calm me down?
*think of _______*
*sweet sweet*

Then band camp's in 2 days' time.
SCL exco passing comm next week.
Sinfornia and Forum's next next week. I think.
And a lot more!!

Ooooh! Busy.
Have to complete IPC tutorial.
Have to finish the math sums
and understand it myself.

Have I "complained" about my math lecturer this sem??
I can die with her as my math lect.. )):
Not that I'm being bad or what.
It's just that.......
Nevermind. It's beyond words... )):

Just have to work double-ly hard.
This sem is all physics-sy..
Last sem was chemistry-sy..
No wonder I found last sem to be easier.
I'm having a hard time.

Though not as cramped and squeezy as last sem.
But I'm better in chemistry.
xP

Eeeewww...
Work hard work hard.
Think of my future.
Jiayou Juliana! (Yvette) xD

Push me on okokokok????
(Oui) wheee~~~~ LOL....

Au revoir!!!!

UPDATES..

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Photos from since don't know when.
IMF dinner, cafe, waiting for lectures...
Death note, Carls' junior and lots more..... xD

One week of school had past.
Wasn't enjoable at all.
):

Libray got itself a cafe!!
Drinks there are cheap!
But food's not.

Though not very big.
It is still acceptable. xD
Can watch movies there!

Eeeewww..
I also wana maple.
xD

Mapling = Bonding??
LOL.
or Conquer Online?

Haha.
Whatever.
Tomorrow's a holiday.

Am I gona rot at home??
)):
Okay.... SOOOOO SAD!!!!

Cannot!
I cannot rot at home!!
I wan majiong all night and play RISKS!!


Or dices???
Whatever that game is..
New game!!!! xD

I'm so excited laa..
At the same time, disappointed.
With myself.

Ooh ooh ooh!!
Everyone who talks(ed) to me
Always say....I think too much!

Is that true??
I'm not sure myself...
*fidgets*

Great.
Now I'm stucked in one decision
I made few weeks ago. ):

I need advices.
But I'm not willing to talk to anyone about it.
NO ONE.

Omg.
Shit.
Damn.

So vuglar...
x/
Whooopsss..

Anyway,
To my malay friends out there....
Selamat Hari Raya!!! xD