not a good entry.

you jolly well do not talk HALFWAY with the person and suddenly go MIA!
it's rude..! BLOODY DAMN RUDE!
didn't your mama teach you?
or at least you would have learnt in school...
to show full attention to the one talking to you
and not be distracted???

It's damn irritating!
I get these treatments from everyone surrounding me.
and it's coming onto me. irritation!
ergh.

and now, cause of a few misunderstandings,
you made me think through alot. yet again.
why can't things just last happily for me?

other thing, where do i exactly stand in your heart?
am i ONE of the importants?
or are ******* more importants?
like why the hell...........................

does saying out really helps?
and i thought saying out destroys everything.
why do i live for?
for whom and why???

friendship wasn't there in the beginning.
all we relied on was **********
and that is a rather sad case.
i fantasized.
everyone do.
but my fantasy just do not come true.

ii need comfort sometimes.
and yet everyone seems to think otherwise of me.
the lousist student.
the worst bestfren.
the crappiest person.
and lastly,
the world's most hatred person i bet.

and why is it that i have that kind of thinkings/feelings from everyone?
thinking too much is just an excuse.
i bet when you said that,
you think so otherwise.

i do not think too much.
it's you who gave me all that *thinkings*
respect?
what do i get?

a bad character
a violent behaviour
a hidden face behind my craziness
inferior attitude

what was all that mould what i am today?
what was it that i grow through i bet others won't grow through unless..
the sufferings and misery i'm going through is enough to shock all to death
was it just so difficult to be me?
just me???



i am very tired.
i also wana end it all.
but that is a sin.
i wana be free.


p/s: the above all of *you*(s) refer to different people. if you're guilty, do something about it bah. if you're unhappy, DO NOT TELL ME. JUST GO AWAY.