im breaking down soon................

hmm.. for every second of happiness i had, there'll be an hour of saddness for me. i guess it's really true that dragons are gona be very down in luck or wadever this year. or maybe it's just... me.

so this year had just started. but i am really wishing for it to end already.

serious, no matter how hard i try, i keep failing. that's why me hopes for the up-coming results are dead. buried deep down in my heart. the flame burned out.

even though we're in the 21st century.. my minds are still as at the 10th century or something. and to add on, pessimistic IS in my blood.

was out visiting the teachers yesterday.. had fun with them. but as i said, there'll be moments of unhappiness. which is of cuz not known. anyway, it was a pity that ms ong and mr goh both's not free.. =(

well, after that papa fetched me from mrs chin house and we went loy hei..

my eyes were infected from all the eye make-up and cosmestic contact lenses.. =( and it went red.. real red.. had it for three days already. painful... will i go blind? i wish i could. so that i will not have to see the cruel side of this world. that's being bestowed on me. =(

and i was right about the quintet. it did not went on as planned. *sign. it was not about me wanting to be in it. but about seeing him every week. yet it back off.. just not fated.

got a new template all together. really wish.. that i will be like in the past. even though we're still studying den.. i could feel the warmness in him. now.. im just a cold stoned living figure. devoid of a love so true..

sayuri a.k.a chiyo got to be with the chairman in the end. how nice. suddenly, i felt a tinge of respect for the geisha(s). *bow*

oh ya.. im gona spend a very lonely valentine this year. =( i need you my dear.......