false hope? happy sad?

okay, im giving myself false hopes. at least i can secure myself.. just this little bit. =)

im learning to knit now. for a suprise! =) lucky someone does not read my blog. but no matter what, i hope my sincerity will be able to move that someone. even if it fails, i'll still just hold on and hold on and hold on........

friday's the day. gona introduce baby to Mr Goh! =) mama called me crazy for wanting to bring him to school. it holds special memories for me. it is also the last monthsary present i got from him. still remember that time, baby was brought to my very eyes.. in suprise! =D im really very angry at myself. for not being persistent enough. but still, baby let me realise how important *baby* is to me.

ahh... out of point out of point. haha.. im trying very very hard to be as normal as i can be. towards him. and let nature path my way for me. =)

i really hope to occupy that space in your heart again and that i will once again be the most important person in your life.. that's all i ask of you......

oh ya, i did not contact ear cancer. confirmed yesterday already.. =D yeah!