a new beginning ♥

i feel like the little girl in the picture. lonely and down. X

and so i had been staring at the practise papers for like....idunohowlong already. and for every year paper. i can only do the 1st few questions. the recent years..i don't even know the 1st few questions!!! X( freaked out by the "knowledge" i had eh. i should just go bang a wall. X/

anyway, i just hope tomorrow i can *squeeze* everything into my head. i don't know how am i gona do that. but..yar. i have to laa. no choice. i don't wana repeat anything alright. why must there be math..!!! X/ hate it sia. anything but math is okae for me laaaa....! ergh. oh well, who can i blame. jiayou wor everyone taking exams. and of cuz CP0606! XD

and deyu is now asking me whether wana plan a bbq night as replacement for alumni dinner since.....i don't think anyone from 5n3 is going. i seriously misssss my 5n3! no matter how many conflicts we had in the past. i still missesss them. they're all part of my growing life. XD i love each and everyone of them. those i've lost contact with..it's such a waste. well, back to topic....yup. and so since the alumni dinner is considered expensive for us...we shall do with a bbq night!! XD can't wait. although nothing is confirm yet. and since a majority of them are living in the BP area......im sure they will make it ah!! won't complain about being too far or what right? it's like.........a blue blue moon that we get to meet up!! ((: so glad someone's taking initiative!!!! XD wheeeee~!!!!!!!!!!!!

woah. i can't help but think of all my post-exams activities!! i'm so lucky i have only 3 modules that are examinable. or im realllly sooo gona die.

nicholas revamped his whole blog! it looks much better laa. and his song isn't *loud* anymore. or rather, i fell in love with his song. haha. yup. micheal jackson!! hehe. all time favourite yeah. XD you are not alone.......i am here with you.....lalalalala..... haha..

and gidd sent me another song yet again. meaningful lyrics. but.....well, everytime he sent a song to me.. it represent something. this time, i can't sense anything. X/

and i got to know another kind of song through my uncle. haha. it may sound weird at first. but it definately ain't some weird song laa.. the lyrics......have the *xiao li chang dao* kind.. don't know you understand my chi not. haha. but wadever. yar. it's nice. period.

have been thinking through a lot this past week. study break ain't good at all. it made me slack even more! X( well, that's part of the thinkings. a lot more a lot more.

what's wrong with me nowadays?

***

Months ago she watched him go,
keeping silent without saying no,
since then her heart shut close,
will she ever love again? Nobody knows.
then she saw him in front of her,
both him and her smiled at each other,
She wished she could just spill her heart out,
that she still loves him no doubt.
She looked into his eyes,
it gave her that warm feeling so nice,
she wish she could just tell,
How much she misses him like hell
but she just couldn't

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Your presence used to make me smile,
it made my thoughts run so wild,
it was always sweet talks and kisses,
and much love that one just misses.
Those days are long gone now,
nothing left can be done somehow,
I don't know your face no more,
but still my heart feels so sore.
I saw you the other day,
it made me feel down,
we were just like strangers living in different town.

well, those words just totallly describe my heart.