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hey! im bored..............................................

okae..when im bored, i ponder on alot of things... and when i pondered on alot of things... they will end up being negative.... =( which is why i musn't get bored. but........................ things really are unpredictable.....

hmmm.... it's been days.... dun u miss calling me? =( i noe from the day u told me u dun wana be involved in a relationship, u wud not try asking me on the 21st of may 2004, the entries that u've been posting, the way u replied my msges, the way ur attitude changes towards me, the way u behave towards me, the way u can stand not caring abt me for days and etc and etc... tells me that our fate had ended. i seriously am feeling bloody fcuked up about this. how can you just change to be the luqman u are now....?? how??!!?? why cant we go on?? alot of ur frens are also in BGR and they have no problem getting it on and making it work. but you just let go w/o even trying.. what is this supposed to mean? i feel like a damn bloody idert whenever i tried to msg u or call u to get some of ur attention letting u noe that im still alive and kicking in this world.

christine and kenny got tgt again after 2 years of sep... but that's possible cuz they're still in the same school. i, on the otherhand, may not or will not even get the slightest chance to see u ever again! =( can a heart just turn cold and hard in the few minutes of conversation...? and after that, pretended that i do not exist before? do u still feel for me? do u still love me? u even deleted those msg u locked them in the past. does this mean u are really letting go????????? how can u bear? even though one year plus isn't that long, but it isn't that short too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what have i done to deserve this kind of treatment from u ah? can anyone tell me? why is the world so fcuking unfair to me??

all i wished for is just to be with u till forever. but u just dun wan to give me a chance. u carried on as if we nv happened. den tried to be cool and all.. did u ever tink abt how i felt? did u really give our relationship deep thought? was it really meant to end? im so lost and out of touch to the world.

shit! get out of my life.!