was bloghopping. hopped to one of the blog. am i sad? i tink so. it wasn't real, please tell me this. i was wishing for this vacatios to come quick during my 'O' levels.. but i now wished to be back in sec 4.. the time where i was in my happiest peak of my life. during secondary school years. i had support, comfort, care and concern from him. i had nothin to worry about. i was so *xing fu* at that time. but just in one month of this yr, i lost all that.
i may pretend but i am definately not happy. i lost my support.. i still have to carry on being happy. it's not easy being me. why does your mindset change within few months? i tried to stop it but i cuden. i knew it will happen sooner or later but all i wanted is to have a normal ***.. nope. i was not given a chance. u found joy in life. i found bitterness in mine.
i feel so tired so have to go on pretending. i am sick of it. i can no longer face it anymore. izen it tiring to have to tell myself to cool down and keep calm everytime i have to face u...? u may feel nothing but it cut me deep.
now, i feel like a real loser. and failure in life. i have never felt so hurt before.
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