wakeywakey

and so the ex sent this email saying he's in for the inter-jc pagent -.-"
and after all that happened.....................................wtf.
fine~ i don't want my mind to boil now

well, wakey wakey does reminds me of old times
and whatever..
i really miss miss miss my old days

where happiness was within me
and that
all that i wanted was with me
):

this is reality eh?
a dream of 5 years
and all i got was blank

like you know~
the blank used to do a.chem lab
-.-"

damit
i don't know why
but certain things that just happened got me
falling back flat...................................

this is really a harsh harsh truth
maybe im really not ready to do this

this is the 2nd time already
how many more times have i need to go through this?
i have only this much to give
damit

people used to ask those silly questions like...
if you can have only one thing in the world what would it be?
or
if tomorrow's doomsday what would you do?
or
if i died tomorrow will you feel the pain?
or
more and more more and more more more

i thought they were stupidly idiots
but im dying to ask all these now

you really made me believed
all that i thought and dreamed of
were coming true

but why isit that
now
it all seemed like i was in a dream
or something?

something that never happened
and it's all made up
by patches and patches of my thinkings?

this is so unfair you know?
i wanted to have the courage
but i never find it
):

and 2008 will be here in another 72 hours time plus minus
my math isn't very good
and well the promise i made to darl
i have to fulfil it no matter what
or else i will only be hurting myself more

it's too deep this time round
all added together

since that day the letter got to his hands
my life changed
and till now
it never got better

and those 2 tries on you
were something i would never do
yet i got rejected

plus that stuff only confirmed one thing for me

maybe it is true that
i have been dreaming too much

that's why i need to wake up
i want time to turn back
i .......................................... ...

and we confessed to each other

oh sunrise never show again

this is so expected of everything